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 “What if all the beautiful people were disgusting, and the prettier the more disgusting? We would have a totally different view of beauty then.”

Ju: “…First we would have to define disgusting.”

I have been having variations of this conversation with others (and my own very noisy brain) over these past few days. How do we define a trait? How do we decide how to categorize people into little clusters based on a selection of characteristics? Stereotypically, an extrovert is seen to be outgoing, ready to try new things, someone who loves having company. But why can’t an extrovert also be shy and feel alone in the world? Must they always be bold and friendly in new situations? Why can’t an extrovert enjoy singular yet adventurous sports? Why can’t an introvert be bold and outspoken? Who decided that if you were one, you could not be the other? That Extroversion and Introversion were polar traits that cannot co-exist in a person? Why can’t a person be logical and creative? Shallow and silly in some things yet deep in other ways? Beautiful, yet have disgusting traits? And so on. Psychology allows for so many theories on this, but the one I subscribe to is that personality traits are a continuum—like many fine tuning levels that you can adjust with various possible combinations. Because there aren’t just five or six or eight types of people in the world. Personality tests are helpful, insightful, but sometimes I think they perpetuate stereotypes among those who don’t truly understand that a test cannot measure everything a person was, is and will be. Tests are just guides. The words used to described a person are so general at times, and often a person leaks other categories. Stereotypes are just quick assumptions we make about others because we cant be bothered to take the time to get to truly know them. Instead, we want them to fit the rules and schema of our world and forget that they are unique and contradictory creatures.

But back to the discussion of beauty and disgusting traits. Let us say disgusting traits vary from picking your nose, wearing the same underwear every day without washing it for weeks to things that are socially looked down on and disgraceful. Let us then say that beauty is something that we are attracted to, that is appealing to us. If the beautiful were disgusting, and open about their various flaws and bad habits how drastically will this affect the way we the general public views beauty? Would it change? This is a long stretch but if the media were truthful about the flaws, failures, mistakes and dirty, disgusting things that everyone, even the beautiful commit, would we still have the same obsession with beauty? Would we accept that perfection is a concept, abstract, and indefinable? Would we realize that flaws are normal, and that the beautiful are normal and not some being that can do no wrong? Would we realize in increments that we are beautiful too in our own way? We are obsessed with the lives and scandals of the rich and famous, perhaps because their flaws humanize them to a standard that makes it alright for us to have flaws and make mistakes too. It brings them down to our level, so that they no longer tower over us with their beauty. If imperfections could be accepted as something that lives alongside beauty, would the disgusting be beautiful as well?  Because after all, who said that the pretty can't be disgusting, and the disgusting pretty? Our definitions would change I think, if we can accept such loose concepts.