it isn't easy to watch yourself grow disillusioned of the things you once believed in. To look at the institutions of society, and to realize that they must be flawed because they are man-made. To realize that they are degrading. They are the ideal constructs and systems we set on how a society should function. Laws are not full proof, they do not protect everyone, and they are not always just. Laws and law makers are on the search for justice, for fairness, but can we achieve such states? Ideals are by definition something you strive to reach for but never do. The star you can't touch. Plato speaks of this search for ideals, the search for the true form and definition. But what if it is our ideals that limit us from creating working institutions?

And then to realize, even with the crumbling of institutions we are taught to put all our hopes in, people still try regardless. I am losing my belief in the institution of marriage for example, and while I admire it, I question if it works. Because its a social contract. Most of us define what a marriage or a relationship should be by the norms of our society. I see relationships fail; I see those same people try again. I have to wonder at the resiliency of mankind, and how desperate we are to not feel alone.